Monday, January 18, 2010

leaning on a spider web....



" Such is the destiny of all who forget God; so perishes the hope of the godless. What he trusts in is fragile; what he relies on is a spider's web. He leans on his web, but it gives way; he clings to it, but it does not hold." -Job 8:13-15

This week has been one of roller coaster-like emotions. Actually, there isn't anything really roller coaster-ish about it at all. It's plain and simple. I feel like i can't trust my best friends and it scares the junk out of me. More than one incident last week caused me to question the fidelity, or lack there of, in my friendships. Since then, i'm having a super hard time forgetting it. And that's not as it should be.

I've really yearned to be transparent lately; to be completely open to those whom i love and care for. I figured that sort of countenance would most likely bring about relationships with a tad more solidity. The situation mentioned above is something i freely open to anyone reading this. I looked for a verse that could possibly explain not only my hurt, but also how EVIDENT the explanation was in God's word. The verse above pretty much explains what i've come to realized within the past...um.....4 minutes. As cliche as it may sound, i hate how easy it is to trust the world before trusting God. I'm literally in more awe of God than the world, yet i cling to the latter out of habit.....DUM! Thank goodness the Bible reminds us of how fragile this world is and how important it is that once we take our eyes off of God, that's when we begin to lean on what we're accustomed to. So i've come to ALMOST realize that the friends i have are so dear to me, but they WILL fail me. That's not the case with God..... hallelujah!

Friday, January 15, 2010

what if......

What If song by Jadon Lavik

What if I climbed that mountain, what if I swam to that shore
What if every battle was victorious then would you love me more
Would you love me more
What if I were everyone's first choice, what if I went farther than before
What if I stood high above the rest than would you love me more
Would you love me more

You say I belong to you apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you I'm in awe of why you do
Why you do, why you do, I'm in awe of you, ooh

What if I ignored the hand that fed me, what if I forgot to confess
What if I stumbled down that mountain then would you love me less
Lord would you love me less

What if I were everyones last choice what if I mixed in with the rest
What if I failed what I passed before then would you love me less
lord would you would you love me less, oh no oh no oh no

You say I belong to you apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you I'm in awe of why you do
You do you do you do

What have I done to deserve your son sent to die for me
What can I give I want to live give me eyes to see
In a world that keeps changin there's one thing that I know is true
Your love is stayin there's nothing else I'll hold onto

You say I belong to you apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you I'm in awe of why you do
Why you do

You say I belong to you apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you I'm in awe of why you do
I'm in awe of you I'm in awe of you

The way you love me, the way you do
The way you do , the way you love me, you love me , you love me
The way you do the way you do the way you love me,
the way you love you love you love


This song really has a special place in my life. It's a song that reminds us that we really CANNOT escape God's love. His love for us and our acceptance of that love is what keeps us focused on Him. If He were a God that didn't love us unconditionally, how could we have a relationship with him? Psalm 52:8 reads, "But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God'sunfailing love for ever and ever." If i constantly win, God loves me. If i constantly lost, God loves me. If God has such cRaZy love for us in the way he sent His ONLY son to die for us, shouldn't we have the same cRaZy love for Him?!