bring the rain...

Ok guys. Lately things have been really crazy! And i don't totally mean with scheduling stuff. I mean spiritual emotional stuff. I'm just having to revamp so many areas of my life that i let slip into darkness in a matter of like a month. With the large amounts of rehearsal for footloose, i've pushed God aside and said, "We'll catch up later." Not good. I realize that this is a normal reaction to a busy schedule. But i want to be above the norm.

When i say that God is in control, i mean every bit of it. As many times as i proclaim God's sovereignty, i always find myself trying to MAKE MYSELF good. The bible says, "You began your life in Christ, now you are trying to make it right by your own power? That is foolishness." Hello! There it is . In black and white ink. I think that i am just a victimof that type of personality haha. I always want to be the one to fix anything that i cause to go wrong. But God uses other christian brothers and sisters to help you out and sometimes carry the entire load, just as Christ did/does every day. So i do believe that it's time to loosen the reigns.

My point in telling you all of that was to express how pursuing God really is. Every time i hit a dry spot, any time i find myself in dangerous waters, any time i find myself on the brink of doubt, He draws me back. HE does the work all over again. Because i am not strong enough to take that one big step again to revamp my relationship with Him, He draws me back to Him with His intoxicating spirit. THAT is when i am sure of my salvation, when i can hear Him drawing me back. It's when i feel back at home and the rest of the world seems so trivial from then on. To quote one of the songs overplayed on KLOVE, "He's not finished with me yet!"

If any of you know of the band BRANCH, their lead vocalist, Rachel Ruth, has just released her first solo album! It's quite fantastic! You should check it out!

Rachel Ruth

MONDAY NIGHT

just an update...

Hey guys. I just realized that i haven't posted anything in a while. Whoops. So i'm just going to give you all a very summarized version of what's been going on lately.

1. Rehearsals. Footloose is coming along very well. I thought that the practices were going to be a lot less productive considering the amount of work that we had, and still have, to do. It's wearing me out, but i love that feeling. I love the feeling of exhaustion because you put EVERYTHING into the rehearsal. I can't wait to perform it at the Shaw Center!

2. Jesus. I've recently had to take a couple of steps back. I jumped into my summer vacation with must haste and it has made me pretty weary lately. All of a sudden i'm in full swing with rehearsal, going on vacations, and helping to sell our house. Very seldom have i been reading God's word. It has definitely been apparent. I've been super stressed about stuff with the show and i'm becoming less and less patient everyday. That's why, i've had to draw myself back into reality and remind myself of the Savior for which i live. The only way that i am able to do this is because of God's pursuing nature.

3. New York City. I will be in New York City less than two weeks from now. I will be with three of the most influential people in my life. And i will finally be in the city that i feel has been calling my name from a very young age. This visit is long past due.

seafarer

Well we finally made it to the beach. This whole trip has been kinda chaotic from the planning stage until now. My step sister wasn't able to join us this year, like she has in the past, and then we were in danger of there being oil all up and down the beaches. I sit here and declare the awesomeness of our God. I get to spend quality time with my real sister, who owns a good chunk of my heart, and there is not a drop of oil on the beach. God would have received the credit no matter the outcome, but my human nature can't help but be a little excited that it turned out the way that it did :) I'm looking foward to a relaxing 7 days here at Fort Walton beach before my summer of chaos begins haha.

At This Moment....

Life has been pretty good. But i'm not writing this entry to blab about my life this time. I'm writing this because i want you all to know about this certain song/dance that has become one of my favorites! The previous season of So You Think You Can Dance had two strikingly magnificent dancers, Jakob Karr and Kathryn McCormick. They were both my favorites during the competition. Close to the finale, they were paired together for a contemporary routine that was choreographed by the two owners of COMPLEXIONS, which is a contemporary ballet company. THIS DANCE WAS SO STINKIN LEGIT! It was intense, yet it was also so gentle. Just overall very well done! I'm just deciding right now to share it with you peeps. Enjoy!

Here is the link to the video on youtube also!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqRzfIMr7U8

If everyone could just pray for healing right now that would be nice. Going through a rough spot. Thank You

the epicness of cindy thornton!

Hey guys. Now that i'm done with all of my finals, and yes, i'm now a college sophomore whoop whoop, i'm bored and have been piddling with photoshop all afternoon! I thought that i might do a collage of my all-time favorite artist in the world, Cindy Thornton! :) i hope you guys like!

You are still holy.....

Ooh boy. School is coming to an end. That's going to be nice. But in the midst of ending the school year, i find myself overlooking so many things that i need to be focusing on. I need to be focusing on God's kingdom work---not the planning of each day of summer vacation. I need to be focusing on establishing a unbreakable relationship with the Abba Father---not issues concerning the summer musical production. I suppose i'm just yearning for my thoughts and actions to be organized and obedient.

But in all of this mess and chaos, one thing certainly rings true. Even though i am the most UNHOLY of them all, God IS STILL holy! I find myself in danger of bringing God down to MY level. For some reason i think that the creator of the universe should constantly be considered my "pal". As much as God is our friend and father, I need to be more careful about putting God in a box and forgetting that HE is sovereign! That is part of His beauty! He is working in me. However, in the meantime it might help acknowledging the fact that the most holy and powerful being is pursuing me :)